I always had this dream that I would be the one who solely
taught my kids everything. That they wouldn’t get influenced by anyone else
because I could keep them with me 24/7 and they’d listen to ONLY me and do
EVERYTHING I tell them…. Delusional or what???
This first hit me when I had to leave R at pre-school for
the 1st day when he was 2. While he ran off to play with he toys and
make new friends, I was the one walking away in tears, not because he wasn’t
bothered I was leaving him for 2 ½ hours but because this was the beginning of
the time when someone other than myself was going to teach him new things.
I decided quite early on in my pregnancy that I was going to
give up work to look after him and see him achieve all the milestones for
myself. Hear him say ‘Mama’ and ‘Dada’ for the first time with my own ears and
watch him take his first steps with my own eyes.
So here’s my latest dilemma!!!
R isn’t going to ‘Big’ school yet. In fact, he’s staying in
the nursery school he’s been at since January this year with the same teacher
and assisting staff, but for some reason the start of his first full year in
this class with this teacher is quite daunting for me. Mainly because in the
last 6 months they have taught him things I could never have taught him myself
and he has done things I never imagined he could have achieved. He has his
moments like any other 3 year old but he’s turning into such a charming young
boy and I can’t help but feel I’m not able to take any of the credit.
I think the problem is because I’m jealous!! There….. I said
it. Jealous!!
R’s teacher is all the things I would love to be but just
fail miserably at.
She’s enthusiastic; even at 3:30 in the afternoon after 2
classes of 20 odd kids all day she greets the parents with a chirpy smile and a
spring in her step.
She’s approachable; something I always strive to be but have
just never got the hang of, I think this is linked to the enthusiasm. Parents
are less likely to raise issues with a hapless person aren’t they?
She’s well travelled (I presume); I can't imagine that someone who just ‘popped’
to New York for half term is likely to stay at home and do nothing the rest of
the time….Lucky girl!!
She’s Pretty, Fashionable, Slim, Fit and basically, she’s
someone I wish I had been prior to having my children.
She referred to me as a ‘Yummy Mummy’ recently when
introducing me to someone which I took as a total compliment, still I can’t
help but be envious of her
The Nursery Nurse and all rest of the staff are always
smiley and helpful too no matter how big or small your issue and I am very
covetous of them all.
The bottom line is this…..Anyone that can teach a class of 3
and 4 year olds to sing ‘Twinkle Twinkle’ in Spanish will ALWAYS be better than me!
